Because It's me..

Kalau ditanya warna favorite ku dari kecil....pasti langsung jawab : pink!!! hehe...

Waktu kecil belum ngerti sih apa arti dari warna-warna yang kita sukai, belum tau kalo warna-warna tsb melambangkan kepribadian kita...

Sekarang...

Sadar banget kalo "gw itu pink bangeettt...."

Pink atau merah muda itu melambangkan pribadi yang menenangkan, lembut dan kalem namun punya pesona yang kuat....

Selain pink, aku juga suka warna merah yang melambangkan keberanian. Walaupun arti dari kedua warna ini bertentangan, tapi menurutku kombinasi kedua warna ini cewe banget...Kombinasi warna pink dan merah melambangkan kepribadian umum para wanita, yang walau lembut hatinya namun juga seorang figur manusia yang kuat yang menjadi pendukung keluarga, suami dan anak-anaknya...

I choose the sweet & cheerfull VAIO E 14P with pink color because it's me..

Terlihat semburat warna merah ceria diantara kelembutan warna pink yang berseri cantik dalam design nya yang membuatku langsung terpukau...I love her at the first sight because it's me...Walau hadir dengan design merah muda yang lembut dan cantik namun performance nya tangguh dan bisa diandalkan karena dilengkapi dengan generasi ketiga Intel Core i7 CPU Ivy Bridge dengan AMD Radeon HD 7670M GPU diskrit (VRAM 1GB) wooowww!!! Baterainya juga tahan hingga 5,3 jam.. really, it's superbbb!!

Sama seperti notebook terbaru keluaran Sony ini, walaupun aku punya kepribadian yang lembut dan manis :) tapi bukan berarti aku lemah...Saat ini adalah saat terberat dalam hidupku. Aku sedang didera masalah hidup yang terkadang membuatku berpikir kalo penderitaanku ini tiada akhir dan hidupku akan segera berakhir. Namun aku sadar, ini adalah pelajaran hidup yang berharga. Hal inilah yang membuat kita menjadi manusia seutuhnya, yang membuat tawa dan bahagia yang kita rasakan di masa yang datang akan terasa benar-benar berarti. Yang juga akan membuat kita ingat untuk bersyukur...Adalah sulit untuk melawan ketidakadilan, juga menahan segala rasa sakit karena perlakuan orang-orang yang memanfaatkan ketidakberdayaan kita...Dari apa yang aku alami saat ini aku belajar banyak tentang kesabaran, harapan dan kepercayaan. Walau aku marah, kesal dan sangat sedih, tapi aku tidak akan membalas. Aku memilih untuk fokus pada hidupku..Bagaimana untuk meningkatkan kualitas hidupku..belajar untuk tidak terjebak pada keadaan yang sama lagi...


Over those nightmares or even sleepless nights, over all of those tears and pain, I believe I'll stay strong and never lost hope...No matter what the circumstances of life, I'll survive and will stronger each day!

Because it's me...I won't give up easily...

* This true life story is specially for Because it's me contest, brought by Sony Indonesia and Female Daily. Click here for more information, or found out more on their twitter @SonyIndonesia and @Femaledaily

Learn to Laugh...

Just received an email from my colleague this morning. There's something interesting there, inspiring quotes from two legendary people. Maybe it's just a coincidence, but those words are something i look all this time to keep me sane and strong.

I don't know how to say this, right now I am struggling from my severe life problems and experiencing tremendous pain. I can't help my self to stop suffering from this unfair situation, it's keep rolling in my head and make me really sick. I am so so sooo angry!

But lately, i feel like i want to thank God, because I feel He always guard and guide me in through every phases of my life, even in my every little step. Allah is so kind to me.. Sometimes, he gives me huge happiness so that made me feel like flying and became the luckiest people on the earth. But he is also generous to give me another life lessons from sorrow, failure and loss. Indeed, I am sick, devastated and suffering, however i get a lot of valuable lesson from there. 

I always believe that everything happens for a reason. Recently, I lost someone important in my life, I feel really down like my life was not meaningful anymore. I can't eat, I can't sleep, i even don't know how to smile and laugh anymore...my life is like a disaster! It's very hard to lose someone but the heaviest thing is how to rearrange your heart, rise up and smile again. All this time, I used to living independently. I always trying to resolve my problem on my own, no matter how hard it is. I'm trained to survive, tough and fight my problems in my whole life. But really, this time i felt that it's outside my capacity, i can't handle it, i can't think clearly and got to thinking that this is the end of everything. Apparently there are things that we can not handle alone, we need people to help us to survive and stand up. I'm grateful I still have family and true friends  who accompanied me through all of this. Thanks for being there for me... 


At this time, the pain has not gone yet and i still traumatized by what happened. But I know, I'll survive, I'll rise up, I'll stand up and some day I will lift my chin, smile and said : " I'm fine now"


Adolf Hitler once said : "Anyone can deal with victory. Only the mighty can bear defeat."
continued by Napoleon Hill : "When defeat comes, accept it as a signal that your plans area not sound, rebuild those plans, and set sail once more toward your coveted goal."

 

Best Friend's Wedding :)

Happy Wedding...

with Yudiss...

pardon the messy plates ;p

OHhhhh me so cubby!! >,<

What I wore :

• Dorothy Perkins dress
• Unbranded clutch and necklace worn as bracelet 
• Tony Bianco Stud Heels
• H&M Cardigan

Congratulation for you both, wish you the never ending happiness....


xo,
V

Hope for the best..

Hello... It's been a while since my last post..I have so many to share but dont know where to start.. So many things happened in these early months of 2012, both the good and the bad. Something really big is going on, something that i don't know to feel about..either i should feel grateful or sorry.. But one thing for sure, i'm ready. I will go with the flow, hope for the best. even the worst happens, i'll be strong and make it a good thing for me. Cause i have promise for my self when facing 2012 that i'll never ever again let anything or anyone make me down. 

I always wondering, why people do the bad thing to others, why people so intend to hurt another person.. Don't they have children or parents or siblings who they don't want to get the same bad treatment? The pleasure you have from the success of oppress others, isn't that worthless? Have you ever thinking that someday, maybe you will meet each other again, maybe in different situation, maybe you really need their help.. And when it comes, you are the one with the greatest regret.

xo

V

How could I let "these feeling" go..?

They said it's a broken heart....

..when you suffering and have no desire to do anything normally when you loose a loved one....

But in my case, i don't even know what I'm really loosing...

Just have "these feeling" that torturing me every night...loneliness and sadness has become my friends at the night..I'm sad..I do really really sad for reasons which I also do not understand..

Ohh God..please help me.... :((

Cotton On dress, unbranded cardie, dorothy perkins chain bag, Everbest platform

..Quote of the day..

"..My body keep shaking..

..Maybe it's not from the weather outside,

but from my heart inside.."



from deep down inside my heart..

xo,
V

I miss U so damn MUCH!!

Found this old photo....

You and me at this last october...

You : Jakarta - Surabaya - Jakarta - Palembang - Jakarta
Me : Bandung - Bogor - Bandung - Jakarta - Singapore - Jakarta

...and our meeting point, Seotta Airport Jakarta, just one not so romantic night, not more than 10 hours...
....and, I still miss you so much..SO DAMN MUCH!!

Gina's Wedding Day

Attending Gina & Eri wedding day two weeks ago..

I was worn my Own Design Kebaya and Maxi Skirt.. :) I love the tradition of "seragam nikah" where we, the friends, could wear the same theme outfit with various design according to our each taste. And me of course, so excited to make my design to be real. I'm so happy when I know my design is ready to wear after waiting for a month for production. I immediately went there and my smile widened when I finally touch and try it on me... hehehe...
The idea of the design is a kebaya gown, but I still want to had kain batik as the bottom sometimes so instead of one piece kebaya gown, I decide to made long kebaya as a top and mix it with same color tone maxi skirt. As Gina give me the material for kebaya, bustier and kain batik for bottom so I had to bought another material for the skirt.
So glads it's fits me well, I was affraid to wear a mxi skirt or maxi dress before because of this petite body ;p

Then I read the tips on how to wear maxi for petite...

First, wear a maxi which its length almost cover half of your shoes or even more long so it will cover all over your shoes to make a taller impression..

2nd, wear a high heels or in my case a comfy wedges to help you walk gracefully.. :)

The Last Weekend

This photos are from my last weekend, when I went to Jakarta to meet friends.. :)
It's taken at Rest Area Km 97 Cipularang. Nice Place anyway..

Cotton Ink Tristripe Shawl, unbranded baby pink leather jacket & top, Crocs Hanalei wedges.

The stylish Kids..

Still, at the last day of Sony Step Up Leader Roadshow I found one interesting thing, that so many stylish kids around me at Paris Van Java...They went there with their parents, walking around and shopping! There you go, some of them...

Step Up your Life..!

Hi people....!!! Long time no see....I miss you!

Been so busy lately, didn't even have time to watch tv or read a book or doing scrubbing like I usually do in my spare time. I'm currently participating on Step Up Leader Contest held by Sony VAIO and last sunday was the last day of the 14-day roadshow. Yes, it's 14 days in 3 weeks at 4 diferent places. Ouhh, I'm really tired divided my time for the contest and the other thing which also basicly important : my work. Nevertheless, I am still happy because among the 3-week roadshow I could take my anual leave from office for one week just for concentrated on the contest and it also means refreshing for me.. I feel like I'm on vacation, not doing the office routine,and feel other experience on my days..And guess what .. Ai comes two times on two weekends and we have great time together, including finding a new place as an escape place When We need a little silence. I should not tell you where it is, so it will be still "our escape place" hehehe..

Now, I'm back to my daily activities at office and stay awaits the announcement of result from the contest...Wish me luck guys! :)

Unbranded tank top, bangles & cardigan, LM for Hardware Tank Dress, Dorothy Perkins Flap Bag, Crocs Hanalei, Casio Watch

My Little Valentine...

Cotton Ink two tone dress, ubranded military pink jacket, Perique rose skirt, F21 glass, necklace & shoes

Not such a romantic dinner, but I love the way we spend the night, the way we treat each other, the way we share our thoughts, happyness, tears and laugh! our quality time.. :)

"It's always you...and it will always be you...."

Bringing the happiness... :D

Hi tweeps...long time no see...
I know last night final match of AFF is suck for us, but I still believe that TimNas still have a change to win on the next macth at Dec,29. Yeeaaahhhh...we will take them down at Gelora Bung Karno! :D

As I believe that TimNas will bring the happiness to us, Coca Cola already did that with their Vending Machine. A Coca-Cola vending machine is transformed into a happiness machine delivering "doses" of happiness. The machine not only give you Coca Cola but so many surprize...!!! Let's watch the video.... :)) Unfortunately, it only located at one college at Surabaya..yah..I hope they will bring that happiness machine to Bandung too.. :)

Featured : LOOK 10

I'm so happy...!! I'm featuring on Look 10 and got the award..!
Come visit the site here to see.. :)




Another happy story is my gifts from Gateway Indonesia for winning the #gwbgt contest and from Myria Rafiz give away has been arrived today..!! All the award and the gifts really make my day.. :)) Thanks All...

Hellolulu 2 ways laptop bag in sergeant from gateway =)

Let's Action wahai Pemuda Indonesia

Mentawai before tsunami Oct 25,2010
credit goes to here

Mentawai after tsunami

credit goes to here

para pengungsi di kawasan Merapi
credit goes to here

It's our country, it's our motherland which being grieve for marathon tragedy happened lately..
Earthquake and tsunami in Mentawai occured almost simultaneously with the volcano erruption of Mount Merapi. At this Sumpah Pemuda anniversary moment, let show our care.
This is the moment where a little care from you could mean BIG for them.

Distribute your help to :

• For Non Cash

The Daily Media, company behind Fashionesedaily, one of the biggest female media is open their channel for non cash donation to help the victims. You can visit their website here for more information.

• For Cash

You can spare some of your cash for donation through Palang Merah Indonesia and Aksi Cepat Tanggap (ACT). They will help you to distribute your donation, feel free to visit their website in here and here. You can also join to become a volunteer at ACT.

Salam Sumpah Pemuda!

Hoping for the Rainbow after the Rain..

"Everybody wants happiness, nobody wants pain.
But you can't have a rainbow without a little rain.."

-Dimas Bagus Panuntun-

*He is one of the victim of big flood in Jakarta (25 October 2010)
Found this wonderfull words from his twitter @dimsoya. I don't know him personally but reffers to his twitter, seems like he such a great person. Great friend, great son, great husband and great father for his children. His tweets can make me think a while about life..
May he rest in peace and God gives strength to his family..
An ironic fact, that some hours before he died he was tweeted about his symphatize to people who still trapped by the flood...and then, he becomes the victim. :(
Another tweets from Dimas :

"Tuhan, jgn Engkau beri aku kemenangan dahulu. Berilah aku kekalahan dulu, supaya aku bisa belajar menghadapi & melewatinya. Kelak disaat aku mnjd pemenang nanti, aku akan tau bagaimana menjaganya"

"Aku berdoa bukan untuk menang, tetapi aku berdoa supaya Tuhan beri kekuatan kpdku seandainya aku kalah nanti."

"Mimpi buruk sebenernya indah klo dipikir2,soalnya msh mending bisa mimpi..drpd ngga pernah ngerasaiin mimpi sama sekali.Itu lebih nightmare!"

"Seorang yg mencintai kmu,sbnarnya sll membuatmu marah/gila/kesel/stres.Tp ia tdk pernah tahu hal bodoh apa yg sdh ia lakukan,krn smua yg ia lakukan adlh utk kebaikanmu."

"Si pemimpi br bangun dr tidurnya. Dia berkata apakah ini mimpi? Jwbnya tdk! Ini kenyataan, lalu dia bersyukur kepadaNYA unt smua karuniaNYA."

"Seribu kesabaran itu 1 ketabahan, Seribu ketabahan itu 1 kemantaban, seribu kemantaban itu 1 kematangan, seribu kematangan itu 1 kedewasaan"

"Tiba2 sedih & bahagia ktika bermain dgn Sabria.Bebrp puluh thn kdpan bidadari kecilku akan mnjadi milik orang lain,ktika ijab kabul kelak.."

"Memilikimu adalah kepastian, menjagamu adalah tanggungjawab, mencintaimu adalah anugerah, dan dicintai olehmu adalah "jawaban" love u!"

"If you don't like something, change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it."

"Tanya aku dgn santun, perhatikan aku dgn cinta, liat aku dgn senyuman, sentuh aku dgn kelembutan"

This week Indonesia facing back to back disaster, flood, earthquake, tsunami, volcano eruption...
Many people out there are being suffer right now.
Let's keep praying for all the victims and for our country for a better situation..
And for all of you, please keep strong and safe.

"Dear God...please don't let us go down too deep..coz It's enough..
The rain are already big, now we are hoping for the rainbow..
May your bless always be with us..."

Retired Extremely Dangerous (RED)

I love Bruce Willis as always! And who doesn't love Morgan Freeman?
I lovvvvveeeee this RED so much!! Such a great action movie which a lil touch of humor, I love the way it work together on the movie. Perhaps, you were always could guess end of every Bruce's movies. But I bet, you will love the plot, intrique and every amusing scense on this movie. It's so fresh and funny.. And ohh yaa...my boyfriend loves the movie too, we're really enjoy it..Big Laugh Together :) Even when the movie is over, we're still laugh! Funniest Bruce Willis's movie ever!

Wishing a Maxi Wish!

F21 bunny headband, Re-Shoppe Maxi Dress, unbranded pearly ruffles Cardigan, Longchamp Cabas in Rouge, Crocs Hanalei Wedges

Horraayy...!!Akhirnyaa....bisa kembali merasakan weekend bersama sang kekasih ;)
It's hard to happen because this long distance relationship thing..Even though Bandung and Jakarta wasn't that far anymore since there's Cipularang and I can touch Jakarta for only about 2 hours or even 1 hours and half! But, there's so many complicated things which sometimes makes me couldn't see him.

Ok,
Sabtu Pagi..

• Gym at Fitness First : Body Balance Exercise together :) I was about giving up for some hard move on this exercise but when I saw him at my side did the move hardly but enjoy it and smile for me, suddenly like I have tons power and being spirited again..Errr, perhaps that's what people said miracle hehehe lebaiii...

Sabtu Siang..

• Lunch at one kind of place that he had told me like hundreds, not because it has vey tasty menu or very nice place but because it's unique! It's located at one side of Plaza Semanggi (have no idea where exactly it is hehehe have to ask my boyfriend first) on the top of a building like a bridge. The dishes are ordinary like Food Court but in cramped and a lil bit dirty place. My boyfriend said that it is Plaza Semanggi's employee canteen or something like that. I said it's Sky Dining for employee hehehe..
  I ordered Ayam Goreng Penyet Complete for Rp.11.000, rasanya sih biasa aja tapi satu hal yang bikin gw bisa tetap menikmati makan siang gw adalah sambelnya yang peedeess! :) My boyfriend had Rawon for him and he didn't said anything about the taste. Not good but not bad at all. The only thing we complain is the stinging smell of kinda old iron which accompany us during the lunch.

Sabtu Sore..

• It's shopping time! Yay!! I am lucky, Centro 7th Anniversary Sale was being held when I was there. The most thing makes me happy is my boyfriend allowed me to do shop and accompany me during the shopping spree. Horraayy..!!
  

Sabtu Malam..

• We were had planned to watch movie but then it's being cancelled because we are exhausted. So we went home right after shopping with tired but happy faces. :-)

"I wish this pleasing moment will be happened again in the future..
I wish!"

10 Hours Trip

Huuuaaaahhh....Jet Lag!! Errr..actually it's not jet lag :)
Hahaha..Itu hanya ungkapan kebingungan tubuh dan pikiran ini atas konsep ruang dan waktu yang aku rasain hari ini.
Kemaren sore aku masih di Bandung, lalu malamnya di Jakarta..dan pagi ini aku udah di Bandung lagi..huuaahhh...really tired and confused right?!
It's like your mind was played by. hahaha

Thanks Ai, for always being there whenever I need you..

LM for Hardware Tank Dress, Unbranded Denim Cropped Bolero, lace tank top, & Legging, Casio Watch, Longchamp Cabas Bag in Rouge, Forever21 shoes

New Hair Cut! ^_^

Hehehe...had a fun and shocked hair cut day with Ivin.
Kenapa bikin shock? Karena harganya ternyata diatas apa yang kita duga hihihi..
Udah lamaaaa bgt ga ke Doni Salon yg di Jalan Jurang, kirain harga masih sama2 aja or at least beda dikitlahh.. tp ternyata tidak!!
Hahaha ya iylahh...udah ada 4thn kali ga kesana...dulu kesana waktu jaman kuliah :)
Hihihihi....sebenernya ga mahal2 bgt sih.masih standar jg harganya..cuma saat itu ekspektasinya lagi ga nyambung aja dan kaget pas bayar..Hahahaha..Mana gw cuma bawa duit pas2an..!! -.-


But, overall gw tetep suka ama salon ini..Pelayanannya dan hasil cutting nya mas Iwan tetep juara deh!! :))

Errr...ada yang pernah ngalamin hal yg sama?? hehehe..